"YOU BELIEVE BECAUSE YOU CAN SEE."
JOHN 20: 29
2nd Sunday of Easter (Divine Mercy) Gospel from John 20: 19 to 31
I was brought out for tea and dinner today by a lady, with the accompaniment of a friend. Had no intention of going out as I was tired and preferred to stay in doors, but I guess it was good exploration for me to go out to new suburbs. Had a good cuppa and a simple street food dinner, nothing fancy. Then quickly pop right back home after dropping the lady off at the train station.
Experiencing Mercy is not easy, when so many of us live in a rather cruel environment; face paced, extra-protective of our needs (especially money and job), not willing to make space for other by going slow and gentle. For me as one who is personally, and also have been commended by those in authority over me, to be a straight, kind and good teacher...I too find it very hard to experience Mercy. My surroundings are filled with people who are either big mouths (talk but do not mean, or talk to trap you) or people who only have their own selfish intention in mind.
As a man of God, I strive constantly to remind myself to be HUMBLE.
Humility is a good virtue, because if we do not have humility nothing new can come about. If we do not from time to time break our ego, break out selves, then we can never see the perspectives of God and of others. Humility means in occasions where we find ourselves starting to boast or over protect ourselves, we keep ourselves a step behind - allow others to make that extra single step. In moments where we see rewards coming, and when we see ourselves starting to boast/gossip to make ourselves look good - we tell ourselves to be humble by keeping silent.
Humility isn't easy!
I totally agree with you that it is VERY PAINFUL to be broken...I have experience that! And, yes no one of us enjoys to be hurt/broken internally. Very painful when we see our ego going away! Very shameful when we see ourselves losing the chance to boast of our expertise/good job.
It is at moments like this that we got to say an extra prayer to remind us of HUMILITY. To give us a little pinch and say to ourselves, "let me be humble. My enemy/friend can prosper now but with humility God will bring everything to good light".